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Sometimes it's already happening
before you’ve caught up to it.

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A reaction, a withdrawal

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or a thought that won't settle.

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Something that keeps returning in one form
or another.

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And by the time you notice it,
it's already there.

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What you understand about it...

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doesn't seem to make much difference.

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It's just running.

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So what I tend to do

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is to stay close to
what's actually happening,

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rather than just the story
or the explanation.

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I'm following your thinking,
but I'm also paying attention to

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what happens alongside the words.

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What shifts in your tone or pacing.

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What gets passed by perhaps too quickly-

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So at some point, I might ask,

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“what's happening inside, as you say that?”

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And often...

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when you slow down
enough, you notice something.

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Maybe the throat tightens, or

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there's a pull to move away
from what you're describing.

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And so we start there.

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We stay with what's actually showing up

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without rushing to explain it.

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And eventually

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what you find is that whatever kept

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taking over or wouldn't let go...

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it isn't a malfunction.

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It's something in you
that learned to respond that way

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for a reason – to keep something safe,

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or to keep something painful

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from becoming too much.

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And it won't budge

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just because it's been explained. But.

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When it's met with curiosity

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rather than the urge to fix it
or push it away.

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That's often
where something begins to soften.